From what I have read about the risks for covid patients in ICU and on ventilators, I can't help wondering whether if those who cared for him had treated him like many other NHS patients, the Prime Minister  might have been less likely to have survived? But more importantly his look of utter bewilderment and exhaustion recently reminded me of the story I heard about Jacob Levy Moreno, the psychiatrist who developed Psychodrama. According to Moreno's own memories, he had been brought up by his mother to be slightly at risk of megalomania - until he played God in some children's game and - perhaps egged on - jumped from a wardrobe, in role. He broke his leg in the fall and - was cured from his former predicament. Boris Johnson appears not to have the opportunity to have his childhood dreams cut to size. The less than flattering report from one tutor at Eton does not appear to have had sufficient effect. Having been voted into office favoured by the voting system, he had no other option apparently than to create another scenario that could break more than his leg - not least because of the responsibility for a disastrous death rate from covid in the UK and a choice of advisor that more than distracts from his own personality issues perhaps. What a terrible learning curve for his subjects..  

 Looking forward to an online meeting this Thursday with international speakers. For one, it being advertised made me aware - I may be a retiree soon, but I can still play a role. Secondly, working in statutory services, in my fifties, as a locum senior social worker in my personal reflection meant a sort of reconciliation with the many ills of the world that had previously tended to depress me. Here I could do something, a core thing, for one person- and it changed my world.
The other thing it taught me, on a personal level was my understanding of the phrase 'let's agree to disagree' - a core of what had attracted me to come to Britain - was mine.  The Local Authority reps who found me me a bit too radical (even as they could not put their finger on it), not only ignored the professional guide lines for social workers which demand walking that tight rope - authority - advocacy, they genuinely could not relax into having differing views.  

Today I read on linkedin that NHS whistleblower Dr Chris Day has been granted a Hearing at the Court of Appeal to challenge the previous decision which was made without examination and cross-examination.  I am delighted for him. He rightly points out how much the NHS has spent on discrediting him.  You don't want me to work out what it could have been spent on. I take heart in the fact that nurses and doctors are currently speaking out about shortage of equipment,  Where accurate, I trust all this could well contribute to a development where the Public Interest Disclosure Act is no longer beind undermined. 

Prompted by another social worker's question on facebook, I am reflecting on what sees me through and I find a few sentences recently heard echoing in my mind. There is the former GCHQ translator Katharine Gun. Her experience is presented in the film Official Secrets: She did not stop the war in Irak but says she has no regrets, she would do it again 'because 'truth always matters' . There is Judge Claire Gilham who had to take the case for whistle-blower-protection to the Supreme Court after having raised concerns about local working conditions. She says: 'Ethically I have always known my point was right'. There is the late Pakistani Human Rights lawyer Asma Jahangir who said 'of course you are afraid, of course you cry - but that does not mean you stop'. Of course, only the latter was in a position where her life was at risk. And only Katharine Gun was imprisoned when accused of a breach of the Official Secrets Act. - In my personal reflection what matters is that their courage resonates with me through these sentences. A conscientious decision stands. And that's that. Paradoxically, I wonder: Perhaps it helps to be a bit on the introvert and sensitive side... 
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In my neighbourhood nobody clapped for the NHS but I have read about it. I have also read one ex-Brit's facebook post: "I live in (named EU country) where they praise their health system by funding it." Ouch. Like so many, I was attracted from the mid 1970s (when I first visited; finally moved to the UK in 1994), by a sense of a quite unique sense of liberalism - be it expressed by a posh man rolling up his trouser legs in his lunch break and lounging in Hyde Park between Hippies and others while reading (insert name of news paper) or the more formal 'we just have to agree to disagree'. Certainly not an expression easy to translate either. I am not going to moan about how social media and other influences have sharpened the edges of often black-or-white discussions. What I am reflecting on, today, in my personal life as elsewhere is this: We all still have the ability  to keep an open mind - by holding paradoxes. 'And we need it, Both is true'  of course, if taken seriously, is a statement that boggles the mind. Once I have broken through the discomfort of isolation, watching too much telly ... the silence of solitude takes me back to the point where I can hold a paradox: Both is true - some of what comes to mind now: The NHS is fantastic - and crippled through self-obstructing managerialism (not just lack of funding in my view). Brits are unique in their willingness to be charitable and volunteer while also far too willing to vote against their social interests and look away from outdated political (and judicial?) practices. I hope to keep breathing the freedom that can be sensed rather than thought, thinking of some of my previous social work clients who taught me so much about living in the midst of paradox.

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BBC Radio 4's consumer program today about the funding for terminaly ill patients. had an informative piece  (about 4 mins into the show) You may also find of interest: fb page of the company 'care to be different'.​

after the legal case I hd to bring after detriment following whistleblowingthat  in the NHS - being unrepresented - was decided for highbrow barristers acting for the NHS, and after Jeremy Hunt made a Public Statement in Parliament in June 2018, stating such treatment of NHS whistlblowers could still happen (

towards the end of the recent election campaign I wrote an open letter to Jonathan Ashworth, expressing my regret that he felt apparently able to joke with his Con friend about Labour chances (or otherwise) - while he had not felt able to respond to the information I sent him about my detriment sufferend after a Public Interest Disclosure on Patient Safeguarding in a Mental Health Trust near his constituency. I had been well aware that he could not assist as an MP since I am not a constituent, but I feel as a member of the All-Party Parliamentary Group on Whistleblowing he might have found a way to get them to look at the case...
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While I am not an alcoholic, I have learned to cherish some of the sense of humour acquired by many with a sense of freedom after quitting. So this is a story that springs to mind: After Pearl Harbour, early AA friends in the US were asked why they were not upset... Reply: We have had our Pearl Harbour some time ago. 
In this spirit, I am inclined to say: Feeling insecure...? That's ok.. 
With any further concerns, if I can help, I will.